Ms. Kala is going to be Brady's caregiver at daycare (we start on Monday). She is a really sweet lady. She has her bachelor's degree in Early Childhood Development and next semester she is going to start on her Master's degree because her ultimate goal is to open her own day care. She has been taking care of babies for 12 years and seems to really enjoy it.
I went to visit the center with Brady on Wednesday, I started crying the moment we walked in the door. I mean it's a great daycare, but the thought of leaving him breaks my heart. For those of you who don't know, this day care is part of JCPenney and it is right there on-site. I am thankful that I have that avaliable because I'll be able to feed Brady throughout the day and go visit him anytime. Ms. Kala is so sweet, she tells me to come down anytime and stay as long as I want (hmm, I wonder what my boss will think about that?) She says she's had moms who stay the whole first day down there and do nothing but cry and she is just fine with that and says she'll even cry with me.
BUT, even the best day care or nanny in the whole wide world would not make me feel any better about going back to work on Monday. I want to be the one to take care of him, I want to be the one to teach him things, I want to witness all of his "firsts". Maybe if I'm lucky I will be able to be a SAHM (thats Stay-at-Home Mom) one day.
OK, I won't bore everyone with my pity-party anymore (for now). I'll check back in after our first couple of days and let everyone know how it goes. Please be praying for us.
I'm glad you got to go visit where Brady will be, but I can completely understand your feelings of wanting to be there! I'll be praying for you on Monday that it won't be a whole day of tears! =) Love you!
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My heart goes out to you, Ronni. I can only imagine how hard tomorrow will be, but at least you know he will be well taken care of and you can check on him throughout the day...still not the same as Mommy taking care of him. You will be in my thoughts and prayers tomorrow! Good luck on your first day back!
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That is INCREDIBLE that your company has a daycare right there where you work! I know it can't be easy to leave Brady, even if he is close, though! Thinking of you, girl!
ReplyDeleteI remember the first day I took the twins to day care and cried all the way to work. I won't lie to you this day does suck and your heart breaks all day long. However, tomorrow will be a lot better. By the end of the week, you'll be a pro. I'll be thinking about you today and if you need a shoulder to cry on just come by my desk. Let me know how your first day goes!
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